It wasn’t as if I made a decision and my life just changed in an instant. The process to change careers dragged on. It continued to be a lot of talk and no real action, just as it had been for the past few years. But it’s not that all that “planning” had no purpose. It laid the groundwork for me to gain the courage to act. Then one day, my husband suggested something crazy to me. In the newspaper he spotted a small blurb about a contest to become a travel show host. He read it to me and said, “you should do this.”
“What!?! No way,” I said. “I can’t make a video of myself. Plus, I’ll never get it, so what’s the point? I have no idea how to talk on camera. I’m not funny or interesting enough. I’d be way too embarrassed to do that.”
Then Nick posed the crucial question:
“Why not? What do you have to lose?”
“I guess nothing. I mean, nothing has changed in my life since I’ve started this process. My energy does feel stagnant, and I bet this could shift that. I keep waiting for something to change, but I’m stuck and losing patience. Maybe the next move is to step out of my comfort zone and do something to let the universe know I’m ready.”
Since I tend to fly by the seat of my pants, right then and there, I decided to…
think about it.
The next morning I woke up and started browsing on the website. There were a lot of video submissions already, and they were awful. The typical video application was someone sitting in front of their laptop in a dark room desperately begging for the position because “it would make me so happy. Please, please, please!” I realized I could definitely come up with a short skit that was better than that, so my “I’ll think about it” turned to a maybe.
After a lot of deliberation, I decided to go for it. Seriously, you would have thought I was deciding whether to have a kid or not. I didn’t think I stood a chance at winning, but I had to do something different.